Why acne doesn't define you
You may be expecting tips on how to get rid of acne with the top 10 products of the season - but that's not the point today. I would like to tell a lot more about my personal story, how I deal with acne and what opened my eyes. If you'd rather listen than read, feel free to listen to the appropriate episode on my podcast. You can find the podcast “she is art.” On all podcast portals, on Spotify & iTunes.
How it all started
The first pimples came with me during puberty. But the pimples quickly turned into large, sore spots that littered my face. I've tried everything, went to the doctor, and yet it didn't get any better. Instead, my dermatologist advised me not to eat dairy products - thanks for nothing.
Only my gynecologist was able to help me, so I started taking the pill at the age of 16. I can already hear some screams, but at the time it helped and since I had a boyfriend it came in handy. The acne went away and I was happy again.
But when I broke up with my boyfriend at the time, I also stopped taking the pill. And after half a year my face looked the same as before. Naive as I was, I quickly took the pill again. It just didn't work this time. The pimples became a little less, but they didn't go away completely. So that's how my unfortunate journey with acne began.
Why acne doesn't define me
I felt restricted and to this day my self-esteem has suffered as a result. But after all these years, I noticed one thing: my acne doesn't define me. It is a skin disease that I cannot help. But still, there is a great temptation to hide behind it because you feel so uncomfortable.
I have often felt that my acne is over-present and that I am secondary. I tried to hide away (which luckily I never did). And did not understand why I am "punished" with it. It was only when the acne gradually went away, but my behavior had not changed, that I noticed that the acne had not defined me - but myself.
I am responsible for how I appear to others and what I do or stop. The acne was just a good excuse. This is not supposed to be a secret recipe, everyone has their own healing process. Sometimes I don't even know what I've done, that I just have clean skin. But the worst thing is: the fear is always there that the acne will come back.
Every morning I wake up wondering if today is the day my acne will come back. But that's exactly what I don't want anymore. Even when I have a pimple, I want to look ahead and let the day go by. Because that's why I and you are no less lovable. Life turns too fast to be consumed by acne. That's why I'm just above my acne - that's easy to say, you guess.
And you are right. It takes time and you have setbacks. Then suddenly there is a breakout, although you did everything right and you don't know what to do next. But looking back, you won't remember the moment, but the fun and joy you experienced because you didn't isolate yourself when you had a bad day. And that's exactly how you stand above acne.
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